d i s a s t e r : p i e c e

Okay, so I realized I haven't written anything for the past uh..17 weeks or so as Thomas kindly made me realize but I didn't have anything important or so to write about as it was.

Life is running smoothly at last it seems and I am a lot happier now than I was a year ago.
It seems that everything that created bumps here and there may not be completely gone but make less difference now.
I am in love with everything that I have around me as it all just radiates positive energy, most likely because of the summery tint everything seems to reflect now that spring is near..

There are only subtle changes in my life, friends as one aspect, have had a major face lift due to something that happened a while ago, bringing me a lot closer to Erick and Di giving me more insight on what they are really like. All this time that I spent with them, I was never really *with* them as I hung out mainly with Thomas though now the tables have changed. It may seem irksome at times but it works out, and I know well how Erick feels about this so I am sort of obligated to keep it up, though I do love him very much as a friend and have little intention of changing the circumstances that have been created now. It's a long, long story and that fact that I know it is enough without me having to recite it on LJ.

There's not a lot more to tell, other than that summer is very much awaited as I have two tickets out of this country due 3 months from now =D I love this place, but I really need to get away if Erick is moving because I'd rather be the one who leaves this time than have someone else leave me. A well thought strategy I have adopted thanks again to Thomas who seems to think along similar lines though seemed pissed when I spoke to him about my plans. Whatever.
And also, summer school at Boston Uni. seems like a likelihood now, haha, is it that obvious how much I don't want to stay in Sweden? I'm not good at saying goodbye and I hate when things end so just no.. He'll hate me for it but it would make things a lot more simpler this way.
Really, where did the young optimistic "we'll-stay-in-touch-forever-no-matter-what-happens" Aarti go? Experiences from bad relationships has taught me a thing or two and I am no longer a sucker for those idealistic thoughts, clearly that never works out. Unfortunately I am still a hopeless romantic. Old habits die hard I guess.

Anyway, I didn't have anything at all sensible to write and will now stop rambling.
lots of Love.

Okay so maybe the blog everyday thing isn't working out :P Meeeh, I knew I wouldn't be able to spare enough time to do so seeing as I've got a fully booked schedule ^__^ I don't really know why but I feel so..forgiven lately, I'm wishing everyone loads of happiness and bliss, even those who have hurt me :D It's absolutely great, makes me get a better perspective of how things have been and should be ^^ I mean obviously I didn't want any of this to end up this way, but what can we do right? :) As long as you're happy I'm happy! Don't think I have anything special to say, went to IHGR today due to CAS and spoke in front of all the teenie weenie 12-years olds (were we really that cute too!?) about stuff. Very professional actually, I forgot how young you really are at that age and was expecting gangster type kids who'd swallow me whole or get me to cry in front of them.
Anywhoo school has never been more fun! :D and friends are fun! Especially great friends like Thomas, Erick, Maria and Anita! I should mention Shrek too xD
Things are settling out quite nicely, if only Erick would stop insisting that I should go out with Thomas now. He thinks it would be really nice if we got together and surprisingly enough Anita agrees. It's really weird but I've never thought about anything like this and the fact that others think that we should get together cause it'd be convenient is quite disturbing xD Somehow I don't think I've heard the last of this but we'll see what happens =P Something is already cooking between the two mentioned above as it is, despite how much Erick denies it.
And some other good news; Poriya is coming to GBG, when he does not know, but he needs to find a hotel so he can stay over the weekend so more update on that later. Speaking of the man, he put me on the phone with one of his "Paki" friends who turned out to be quite charming, at least until he started asking me how long I lived in england :P I do not have an english accent! I have no accent at all xD Weeell, speaking hindi with someone else after like for ever was fun, I kept switching back to english though, don't feel to comfortable with Hindi unfortunately =)

I miss Neeraj. I haven't spoken to him in forever it seems and our contact on MSN has even ceased to exist. Mostly I worry about how he's doing because of his grandma and I know how hard this all is on him. He just has to be the type that goes on smiling and hiding his own pain to make sure others around him can keep their strength, even though on the inside his heart might be breaking, just as I had witnessed for myself in NY..I don't want him to be hurting, but I can't even do anything about it now..

Remindertoself: Buy Powerking for Staffan and Ludvig.


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