d i s a s t e r : p i e c e

Today has been a pretty stressful day seeing as I let all my homework until the last day and it had really piled up :P Anywhoo I'm done with most of the work, just need to do Chem. lab and then it's done. Started reading Glasfåglarna on Friday evening and finished it a couple hours ago and made notes for Swedish presentation. I am really getting on top of things.

I had a really weird conspiracy theory around Neeraj. I'm not even gnna mention it cause it's so stupid but it really shows how little I trust people now..
But enough about that, I'm gonna live! (my new mantra ^___^ Why? Cause everytime I got that big-hole-in-my-soul kinda feeling and I felt like dying I'd say that over and over again and it made me feel better.)

So there you going, nothing new happened today, other than me buying an entire box full of powerking for 84 kr (thank god for grossist priser!) My mother is addicted to Redbull but since that cost 240 kr I bought powerking which to me has a stronger edge to it ^^
Another interesting thing that has happened today is that Joe (Johannes) started talking to me again and after a few hours of friendly chat asked me if I would like to go catch a movie with him someday. In a very this-is-a-date-thing-manner. And me being me needed to clear out the air and asked him straight out if he meant as a date or a friend thing and he said "how about a bit of both?" ..I don't really feel like going but I dunno, maybe it'll make me feel better? I seriously just want to lie in my bed until Christmas and jump on a plane to India. I have to make it clear to him that I'm not interested in anything to do with relationships. So now I'm sitting here trying to select a movie and wishing things hadn't turned out this way.

But as a human I have no power to change things in a deeper cosmological sense, I can simply hope and have faith in life.